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PART - VII - ACCEPTANCE C4/4
He loves me. He will always love me. TWO MONTHS LATER... “Are you finished?” Hoseok’s pretty redhead poked in my doorway and he took in...

jazz
May 22, 20249 min read


PART - VII - ACCEPTANCE C3/4
I love him. My mom called later in the day. She wanted to know how the mediation went. She wanted me to get the dog. And I didn’t want to...

jazz
May 21, 202415 min read


PART - VII - ACCEPTANCE C2/4
I can’t let him go. Three days later, on the morning of our next mediation, I prayed for the flu. When I did not immediately start...

jazz
May 20, 202415 min read


PART - VII - ACCEPTANCE C1/4
I don’t know how to stop (loving) him I jumped out of the car, too nervous to hear him tell me no. I fumbled for the keys in my pocket...

jazz
May 17, 202416 min read


PART - VI - RECONSTRCUTION C4/4
I can(not) do this on my own. Spring came overnight. One day I thought my toes would fall off if I stepped outside my house and the very...

jazz
May 16, 202418 min read


PART - VI - RECONSTRUCTION C3/4
Second chances are (Im)possible By the middle of January, school had started back up again and Taehyung and I had been through our second...

jazz
May 15, 202413 min read


PART - VI - RECONSTRUCTION C2/4
I (don’t) deserve someone who loves me When I walked through the door Christmas night, I had never felt lower. Christmas with my parents...

jazz
May 14, 202412 min read


PART - VI - RECONSTRUCTION C1/4
I just wanna be happier. The start of Christmas break was just as glorious as I’d hoped it would be. I was positive I had gained ten...

jazz
May 13, 202413 min read


PART - V - Depression C5/5
We’re (B)eating love... Christmas break was within my reach. If I could make it through this day, I’d have three and a half blissful...

jazz
May 10, 202410 min read


Part - V - Depression C4/5
He does(n’t) think twice TH: Can we meet for dinner? I want to talk. Please, Jungkook. Just hear me out. I slid my cell phone back and...

jazz
May 9, 202412 min read


Part - V - Depression C3/5
It’s too L(H)ate for us. “Am I late?” Hoseok tossed his coat on the empty chair between us and threw his purse down. His pale cheeks were...

jazz
May 8, 202412 min read


PART - V - DEPRESSION C2/5
He’s completely (un)predictable. The next time I saw Taehyung was a week before Thanksgiving at our first round of mediation. My lawyer...

jazz
May 7, 202416 min read


PART – V - Depression - C1/5
AM I OVER (HIM)??? The next week hailed Halloween and I was in the worst funk of my life. The divorce hadn’t moved forward. Taehyung was...

jazz
May 6, 202414 min read






Part - III - CHAPTER 2
(Dis)Agreement is the New Trend Chapter 2/2 Oh, god. I thought I would be sick from the sudden, acrid burst of jealousy inside me. He...

jazz
Mar 31, 202420 min read


PART - III - ANGER - Chapter 2
(Dis)Agreement is the New TREND CHAPTER 1/2 I sat at the lawyer’s office waiting for twenty minutes on a busy day. This was our first...

jazz
Mar 31, 202420 min read


Part - III - Anger -C1
TAEHYUNG's POV Seven years ago... I woke to the sound of birds and a really annoying siren from a fire department. Probably the pot heads...

jazz
Mar 22, 202420 min read


Part - II - C5 - Seven stages of Grief
WE SHOULD(N’T) TALK MORE... After my dinner debacle I wasn’t in any mood to go out. I didn’t even tell Hoseok I and Mr. Min went out to...

jazz
Feb 11, 202430 min read
Part - II -C4. Seven stages of Grief
C4 – I can li(o)ve without YOU A week and a half had gone by since Taehyung stopped by to see Pikachu. For a couple days, I had...

jazz
Jan 1, 202418 min read
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