C24 - Soul-ed MATE

I knew where my mother was going based on the jewels she wore. Pearls for charity luncheons. Diamonds for society balls. That night she wore a large ruby pendant, a necklace I’d never seen before.

‘Where are you going, Mama?’ A party, she said absently.

‘Can I come?’

Her laugh was a strange sound. ‘You’re too young, Jimin. And thank God for that.

When will I be old enough?’

She looked at me, her eyes softening. ‘I don’t know, but it’s nothing to rush. Stay here, sweetheart. Stay small. That’s when you’re safe. Stay safe.’

She left that night and never came home. She lost control, brakes failed. She died on the way to the hospital. Dad told me what happened in a rough voice, eyes red from crying. My eight-year-old brain didn’t want to believe it.

I searched the house for her, convinced she was playing hide-and-seek, hoping that it was all a bad dream. When I finally accepted she was gone, I crawled into bed and stayed there for two weeks.

Both Dad and Rosé begged me to eat, but I could only curl up beneath the covers, huddled in the dark as if the cramped, airless space wasn’t in the world without my mother.

As if it would keep me safe.

Yoongi reaches for me, and I react on instinct.

I whirl, dashing for the metal stairs. A low ottoman catches my foot, and I land hard on my knees. I can feel Yoongi behind me—his breath, his excitement. And then his hand on my wrist. Something wild rattles inside me, and I let it free.

Without looking I kick backward, pulling a grunt from him. His grip loosen enough for me to twist away, and then I’m flying down the metal steps, dashing through the hallway.

I know this house better than him, but without furniture there’s nowhere to hide. Instinct alone propels me down the hall, hair flying behind me, breath shallow. On some level I know it’s useless to run.

He’ll only enjoy it. But the deeper animal side of me recognized the danger in his eyes. The sharpness of his teeth. I’m acting on pure survival.

Fight-or-flight.

My room is an empty shell, an architectural dig into the time before. The time when I was still innocent. Footsteps follow me—closer, closer.

I duck into the closet and hold my breath. This is how I played hide-and- seek with my mother, shaking with nervousness as I heard her voice.

‘Where is my little Jimin? He’s quiet as a mouse!’

And then Yoongi’s in my room. He stills.

“Where could you be?” comes his liquid voice. “So small. So sweet. I can almost smell you.”

Because he’s a wild animal made to look human. A predator living among prey. Anxiety clenches my throat. It’s a struggle not to move, but even flat against the wall my heart beats wildly. He must hear it. He must feel it vibrating through the house.

He crosses the room with a leisurely stride, hitting that board that creaks ever since I spilled a glass of water.

I can envision him looking out the window at the unkempt lawn.

“The chase makes it better, don’t you think? If I touched you, would you be wet?”

No. It’s impossible. Except there’s heat coursing through me.

Anticipation.

And my body can’t seem to tell the difference between fear and arousal. Or maybe they’re the same thing, mixed together by the sexual awakening of the auction. Maybe I only get turned on by a man owning me.

Submission.

The doorknob turns. The closet door opens, letting in a sliver of light. He steps inside, blocking the light with his body.

“Found you,” he murmurs.

“You never really let me go.”

A low laugh is the only response. Because it’s the truth. He toys with me, letting me run only to pick me up by my tail. It’s a twisted game, meant to amuse him, meant to scare me.

‘Mr. Min thought you might like to spend time in the house before the auction.’

This is why he had the limo pick me up early. Not kindness. Not understanding. Pure sexual power, made colder by the fact that we’re in the house he took from me.

It’s already wrong to be here with him in my family’s legacy. Already humiliating to be hunted like an animal. That’s what he means to do—break my spirit.

Twist my love.

Even knowing I’ll lose, I’m not ready to give in. I tilt my face to him, lips inches away. He wants my capture more than my surrender, so I let him cover the distance. His lips claim mine in a bruising statement.

He invades me with tongue and teeth, with force and electric pleasure—for five seconds. Four. Three, two, one. And then I bite down, hard enough to taste the copper of his blood, brutal enough to hear him grunt in response.

It’s the follow-up knee between his legs that makes him stumble back. The powerful force of him thuds against the wall, and I know I only have seconds of freedom. Then I’m flying down the stairs, through empty halls and echoing wood floors.

My breath comes in rasping, frantic gulps as I burst into the large living room, the grand fireplace almost naked without my mother’s portrait above it. It’s in that moment, the half heartbeat where I mourn the loss of her picture, that Yoongi slams into me from behind.

Then I’m pressed against hand-carved scrolls, marble cold against my cheek, patterns sharp against my body. Without thinking my hands go to the mantel, holding me steady while he presses from behind.

He’s breathing hard too, though it seems more like excitement than tiredness. Especially with the hard length imprinted against my ass.

“You drew blood,” he murmurs, almost with wonder.

I jerk against him, but his hold is too secure this time. “Good.”

Heat. Softness. The faint edge of teeth. That’s how his mouth registers against my neck. He bites hard on my scent glands. Hard to make me moan, but not hard enough to imprint himself on me.

Sensation and pleasure and pain as he works his way to the curve of my shoulder.

“No one fights me like you,” he says, his hand flat against my stomach.

My breath catches. It’s a threat, that hand. The one safe place on the front of my body. Any higher and he’ll choke me. Lower and he’ll reach between my legs.

“Will you fight me?” he murmurs.

It only makes him harder, hotter. It only makes the win more satisfying for him. There are some things a body will do on its own—like taking a deep breath at the bottom of the ocean, knowing you’ll only breathe in water but having to try anyway.

“Yes.”

“Thank fcuk,” he says, his voice thick. He turns me around, his mouth fusing to mine, stealing my breath. I don’t have a chance to push him away; he’s already inside me.

His mouth bites at mine, hard enough to make me jolt, sweet enough to make my nipples pebble beneath the shirt.

I push up against his chest, an implacable wall as hard as the brick behind me. “Wait.”

“There’s no time,” he breathes, his lips working down my throat. “They’ll start arriving any second now.”

My eyes close in tacit denial. “No.”

“No?” He dips lower, into the hollow of my neck.

“I wish I could taste you. Wish I could lick you—here.” The nudge of his hips pushes something hot and hard against me. Between my legs. We fit together perfectly.

“Not here.”

“Later,” he promises. Then his mouth is on mine again, his body pressed against me—the broad plain of his chest, the bunch of his abs, the ridge where his body demands entry.

So much need coiled in him, so many ways he could relieve it, but all he does is kiss me. Maybe that’s why I lean back and let him. His hand drops lower, curving around my ass, supporting me as I press close, my body aching for a fullness only he can supply.

The rhythm starts between my legs and spreads outward. My body turns to light, bright and sharp. He’s the inky black sky, holding me in place. My body starts rubbing against him. As I find my rhythm in tandem with his lip movement—The slam of a car door jolts me from the reverie.

I stiffen, realizing what I let him do. And I want even more. He straightens my clothes with an efficiency I can only marvel at. I still have one foot in the other world, the one with light and color and pure sweet sensation.

His eyes are a shocking mahogany now, as if he’s a stranger. He looks almost tender as he tucks a strand of hair behind my ear.

“Better than I remember,” he whispers.

I trace his lips with my fingertips, wondering how he can be so cruel and so kind.

Does it tear him apart inside?

Or does it lock into place like a perfect jigsaw puzzle, made perfect by the way it fits together?

“Mr. Min? Are you here?” The female voice slices between us. He takes a step back.

“That’s Ms. Ahn, here to inspect the home prior to the auction. I’ll go out first, give you time to regain your bearings.” He eyes the bulge I am professing right now.

He’s all business now, and I mourn the loss. “Are you staying for the auction?”

“I wouldn’t miss it.”

Because he wants to see me lose? Or because he wants me to win? The small sting of hope must be some side effect of our encounter.

I feel as if I sleepwalked and woke up by the fireplace, having dreamed the entire thing. Only I’m not sure when I fell asleep—in the attic? Or maybe I went to sleep as a child, curled up in my bed, only waking now.

!!~~~~!!

The last day I spent in bed after Mum died Dad came to me, his expression dark. He studied me with a grave finality, and I felt that deep pull to please him. The bed dipped as he sat on the side.

“Look at what she did to us, Jimin. She shouldn’t have gone that night. This is happening because she left.”

My eyes are wide. He was sad when we got the call about Mama. Desperate when he begged me to eat. I’d never seen him angry like this.

“It wasn’t her fault.”

His gaze lands on me, a strange intensity. “You won’t leave, will you?” When I don’t answer right away, he demands, “Will you?”

My stomach clenches. “I won’t, Dad.”

He regards me with approval. “There’s my lil mochi. My sweetcake. This is where you’re safe.”

It seemed to be true. My childhood here was marked by kind smiles and warm parties. That makes it all the more jarring when some of the men who arrive were at my auction.

I understand that there are only so many men in Daegu who have huge amounts of money to spend, but I feel paranoid too. As if they want to possess me in every way possible.

There’s a man with grey hair who had a beautiful woman in a glamorous dress—now the same woman has her hair in a tight bun, a suit crafted to her body. Min Yoongi stood at the back of the room at my auction, taunting me, challenging me, until he finally threw out the winning bid.

Now he stands at the back in a different capacity, as the temporary owner of this home. Not gaining something today.

Losing something.

“The opening bid will be low,” Hyejin whispers, taking me aside as the attendees tour the house. “The last thing you want to do is get in a bidding war, going up in increments. That kind of thing is going to end high. These guys are competitive. They want to win.”

“But they all have more money than me. They can win if they want to.”

“That’s why you need to go high fast. I know it’s counterintuitive, but it’s —”

“Game theory,” I say, because sociology was a major component of

ancient mythology. In a sequential game, the more bids there are the more complex the decision tree. And in the case of an auction, the only direction to go is up.

“The sooner I win the better chance I have of winning at all.”

“Exactly,” she says before hurrying over to a man with questions. All of them are allowed to inspect the house prior to the auction. There are folding chairs brought in, which only emphasizes the lack of furniture. More and more the house is hollow, a once-grand oak tree now brittle and dead.

“We’re about to begin,” Hyejin announces. Some men in suits sit down, holding cardboard placards. I head over to Yoongi, determined to ignore my embarrassment. The knowing glint in his eyes speaks to mouths and hands, to the touch I can still feel in the secret places on my body.

“The diary,” I say, my voice soft so no one else hears.

He shakes his head slowly. “I think I’ll hold on to it.”

Desperation is a fist around my heart. “Please, Yoongi.”

“I do love hearing you say my name. Even more when you’re naked and spread wide, when—”

“Stop.” My cheeks flush. “It’s my mother’s diary. She means everything to me. And if I don’t win this auction, it’s all I’ll have left.”

“Then you should try to win.”

Helplessness steals the air from me. I want to slap him again, but then everyone in the room would see my anger.

My weakness. Most of them already know that Min Yoongi bought me at auction.

They know we’ve had sex, even if they don’t know he was touching me just minutes ago.

I won’t let them see me affected by it. I look at the fireplace, where a portrait of my mother used to hang. Even that was sold to an estate dealer, the artist famous enough to command a decent resale value.

“Tell me this much. Do you think a million dollars is enough?”

With his command of real estate, with his personal knowledge of the people in this room, he will know how the bidding will be.

“The truth is, I’m not sure.”

Hyejin stands beside a small folding table, about to begin.

“Yoongi,” I say, pleading.

One eyebrow rises. “I’m telling you what I know. It would usually be enough. The bad press about your father kept away some of the big players. Everyone here wants it for a quick flip or a conversation piece—neither is worth very much.”

“So, I can win?”

“If you play it right, you might. But…” He looks thoughtful.

“Last call,” Hyejin says, gaze directly on me.

“But what?” I whisper.

“But the man on the end there? I don’t know him.”

A wild card? I look at the last row where a man in a tailored suit glances at his watch. I’ve never seen him before either. And Yoongi knows everyone. Without another word I hurry back to find a seat—right up front, because I don’t want to miss anything.

Hyejin hands me a cardboard number and returns to the table. I want that diary, but first I need to win the house back. This is where my father wants to spend his final days. This is the place that holds my family’s legacy.

My mother left it to me for a reason, and I won’t let her down.

“The bidding starts at two hundred thousand,” Hyejin says. “The contract will be signed on immediate conclusion of the winning bid. Anyone who hasn’t already prequalified will be required to present proof of fiduciary capability. Any questions?”

“Are you free Saturday night?” a man near the front says.

Hyejin gives him a flat look. “Why? Do you know anyone worth my time?”

The men, all laugh, except for the man in the corner. He looks impatient. And except for Yoongi. His sharp look promises some small retribution for the disrespect, but the other men don’t seem to notice.

That’s why he stands in the back, I realize. To watch over everyone. An almost godlike presence who metes out punishment and rewards. I’ve become intimately familiar with both the pain and the pleasure at his hands.

“Let’s begin,” Hyejin says brusquely. “Do I have two hundred thousand? Two hundred?”

It’s clear that she’s done this before. It’s also clear the other men have plenty of experience. Their cards lift only an inch when they bid, such a tiny distance to signify thousands of dollars.

My stomach ties itself into knots and then straight again by the time the bidding lands where I need it.

“Three hundred thousand,” Hyejin says.

That’s my cue. I raise my placard high. “One million dollars.” The room falls silent.

“Can you repeat that?” Hyejin asks.

“I’ll bid one million dollars for the house.” The silence stretches out for one heartbeat, two, as I wait to find out if I’ve won.

“Well,” Hyejin says, sounding pleased. “That certainly changes the game, gentlemen. What do you think? Are you willing to put more than one million into this house?”

One of the men stands. “Too rich for my blood.” With that he’s on the phone talking to a broker about a different property, already moved on before he even strides from the room.

The grey-haired man who was at my auction, who came close to bidding on me, stands as well.

When he turns to me, his eyes are kind. “Congratulations, young man. I must say that I had thought the house would be an enticement to have you after Yoongi here, but in both cases I appear to be outgunned.”

With a cordial bow he leaves, his gorgeous assistant in tow. The only man left in the audience is the one in the corner, the stranger who even Yoongi didn’t know.

He’s been impatient this entire time, looking as if he’d rather be somewhere else, but now he leans forward. “What’s the next bid?”

Hyejin pauses, hiding her dismay behind a cool smile. “Two million, anyone?”

My throat closes. I would never be able to match that. I can’t spend a dollar over a million. I know that Hyejin is trying to help me, but the dread in my bones tells me it won’t work.

There’s some reason this man is here, some purpose I can’t discern.

The stranger lifts his placard.

YES.

And just like that I lose everything.

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